Hello my name is Tina

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Hello everyone! I was so glad to have found this website "Deliverance from Depression". I heard Sis Bev Testimony and I was so blessed and encouraged. I wanted to listen to the prophetic word the Lord gave her, but it would not come thru. I will try again tomorrow.
I have been going thru depression off and on since I was 18. I am now 47. I was born again at the age of 22 and learned thru scriptures what Jesus did for me at the cross. And also where the word says in John 10:10, that Satan come to steal, kill and destroy, but Jesus came to give me life and more abundantly.
I am not sure where this depression came in, or how it started. I just know that anything that does not bring victory, joy or peace is not from God. When I have had these mental attacks on my mind in the past, I have always been able to stand against it and it eventually leaves, when it is not there I can't imagine having them because I will have so much Joy. Since over a year ago. I got attacked big time. At that time I was feeling overwhelmed and was going thru different storms that came at me all at the same time in every area of my life. I was very overwhelmed and depression hit me hard. Some days are so rough, it is hard to get out of bed or go anywhere, I have to make myself. I have feelings of hopelessness and despair and at times feel like I am dying. I have a wonderful husband, but I feel bad because it tries to effect my personality. If it wasn't for Jesus in my life, I don't know what I would do. He is my deliverer and I am trusting in Him. The word says in Eph 6:13 When you have done all you know to do to stand. So I am standing on His word.
I have been married for 21/2 years. My husband has pastored for 27 years. No He is an evangilist, and we travel a lot.
I am amazed how God uses me even in this situation. I play the keyboard and we sing. He has used me to pray for the sick. I ask God sometimes, Why is it I can be going thru the worst attacks ever, while I am ministering in song or prayer. But He brings me thru. Praise God! I know the word says for me not to lean on my own understanding.
God spoke a word to me about 2 months ago, He told me the word "PUSH". I said, Lord what do you mean? He said, Don't go by what my body and my mind says. They are lying symptoms. The bible say to "resist the devil and he will flee from you"
Resist is when something is pushing through opposition. The enemy might be trying to push his way through, but as we PUSH
by speaking the word, praise and worship and praying. Sometimes I am going thru so much agony and I don't want to pray, praise or anything and sometimes I don't. But I am learning to ignore what my 5 physical senses says and push my mind thru all that mess and push my body and fall down on my knees and worship Him. I know He is the answer for me and you. I have wanted to give up so many times, and I cry a lot by myself when it is so overwhelming., but I will not give up! Because God has a purpose and a destiny for me and for you. God also spoke to me last week as I was washing dishes about a movie I saw called "enough". It was about a lady whose husband beats her up. He said, see how that lady allowed her husband to beat her up every day. The devil is doing the same thing to you. He told me to stop allowing him to beat on me. In the movie she finally had enough. Thats when I rose up and said "Enough is Enough". The lady went and got training to fight and she put on her battle gear. The bible say that we need to put on the whole armor of God that we can stand against the wiles of the devil eph.6:11, and that we wrestle not against flesh but against pricipalities,powers and spiritual wickedness in high places. Eph 12
We do combat through the word. Then in the movie she went to her home and hid til he got home, then ambushed him and that was the end of him. The bible says in Ps 18 that we overtake the enemy and we don't stop til he is consumed. That word ministered to me so much.
I am sorry for preaching and writing so much. Thank you for being there. I really don't talk to no one about what I am going thru except my husband. Thank you for listening. Please pray for me. My husband is getting bookings for this year to minister. A Pastor friend of his in Fla. asked us to do a week revival. He wants us to come to their house and stay with them.
We always stay in a motel. I don't want to have a attack and freak out on them. Do you mind when I find out when that is that you all can pray for strengh. Thank you and also I am beleiving God for everyone complete and total freedom.
Tina
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I am so glad I found this website. My husband is a Minister, and we travel a lot. I have been going thru depression off and on for years. I am standing on the word, and trusting Him for breakthrough.

[Digitalsmiles]

Dear Tina,

I am so sorry that I did not respond sooner. I did not receive notification that you had left a message and hadn't checked the site this week. I will make sure that I get that fixed so this will not happen again.

Welcome Tina,

I appreciate your sharing your experiences (your struggles and your victories in Christ).

God bless you Tina. You sound like you are doing everything right. I too get tired and don't stand my ground every day. I have prayed to the Lord about that, asking for forgiveness and also saying that I will not do it perfect and my Father in Heaven knows that I will not stand perfectly. I don't believe that God expects us to do it perfectly. He understands that we are weak at times. He has promised that when we are weak, He is strong.

I most certainly don't have all the answers Tina. I too am crying out to God for His Wisdom. I know that it is God's will that we be free and that He loves us no matter what our performance looks like. Praise the Lord for that. I admire your perseverance and I know that God is pleased that you keep on keeping on, no matter what the opposition is.

I truly believe that God will give us back everything that the locus has stolen from us.